Next Step
I remember walking into Christian High School the very first day of freshman year. I was so unbelievably terrified. I didn’t know a single person and I just watched as friends greeted each other. I was surrounded by a buzz of chatter and laughter. For all of freshman year I was so shy. I was still socially awkward and didnt have the first clue about how to make friends. It didnt help that nearly everyone intimidated me.
The years flew by. At CHS I learned more than just the academics I studied so carefully. I also learned how to speak up, show the world who I am as an individual. I found myself at that school. But I don’t think first impressions are easily forgotten. I still am trapped in this box that I put myself in during freshman year, with little room for expansion.
At CHS, I learned who I am. I learned that friends and activities don’t define me. I had some amazing memories and I will always cherish the friendships that I had. But tomorrow, I get to walk across that stage and accept my diploma. After, I will leave that dear place for good and with it, I intend to leave my insecurities, my fears that I can’t fit in, that I’m not good enough or maybe even too good. Leaving that school tomorrow, I’m leaving behind that shy girl that walked in freshman year practically shaking with fear.
In August I get to start fresh with a blank canvas. I get to be who I want to be. I’m so looking forward to taking a step out in confidence. It will be so incredible to start fresh. No one will remember that shy girl that hardly said a word. No one will have anything to judge except what I have to offer starting right now.
All that being said, I have loved my time at Christian High. It helped me to grow both as a person and as a Christian. But my time there is done and I can’t stay a minute longer. It’s time for me to take the next step, to move forward with confidence in who I am in Christ.
